shakenbakeben

As black as the night can get
Everything is safer now
There's always a way to forget
Once you learn to find a way how

In the blur of serenity
Where did everything get lost?
The flowers of naivete
Buried in a layer of frost

The smell of sunshine
I remember sometimes

Thought he had it all before they called his bluff
Found out that his skin just wasn't thick enough
Wanted to go back to how it was before
Thought he lost everything
Then he lost a whole lot more

A fool's devotion
Swallowed up in empty space
The tears of regret
Frozen to the side of his face

The smell of sunshine
I remember sometimes

I've done all I can do
Could I please come with you?
Sweet smell of sunshine
I remember sometimes



Sometimes Trent Reznor and I connect in ways I can't comprehend.

So, I was sick today. {again}

Well, I at least had a day to just relax and not worry about the same, stupid routine. {i'm tired of school already}

I watched the Bill Cosby show. I was kind of amazed at how funny it was. {theo!}

So, tomorrow I'll go back to school. {maybe}

Can't say I'm looking forward to it, but I know that this is my "tough year" so I'm gonna push through it. My senior year will probably be pretty lax. {band, interning, and the triumvirate of mandatory senior classes}

I think I'm gonna {stop writing like this now}

'Till later mein freunden,



~Ben

I decided to start a livejournal because I'm starting to lose interest in myspace and this seems like a much healthier alternative.
I might not update this but like once a week, but that's basically what most other people do anyway, so I guess I'm in the norm.

Hopefully, keeping a journal of my actions, as well as my emotions, will help myself and others to understand me more thoroughly.


One small step for Ben.....



one giant leap away from myspace.